You're the only thing that keeps me going...and i think i may have to stop talking to you.

I'm afraid you're like a drug to me and I am to you and we'll never be able to stop...

I can't wait to move off campus so I don't have to listen to people's bed squeaking while they're having sex.

i enjoy using up the last of the toilet paper because i know that the next person will be left without ANY.

Post Secrets for April 30, 2008

I wish I could talk to my family about what is going on in my life, but I'm afraid if I do, they will judge me.

I think I'm going to fail out of college, I don't know how to fix it, and its the last thing I want. I'm so embarrassed.

i'm starting to think i create drama in my life, because deep down i enjoy it.

i'm terrified i will let my family down and never live up to their expectations, even though they tell me they are proud.

I cut myself, and then make up excuses before my friends get a chance to ask about.

i cry every time i think about my relationship with my parents. i miss them so much and i hate how things are, but i have no idea how to fix them. i know they care and would do anything for me, but i feel like i can't go them about things. i wish there was something i could do.

Post Secrets for April 29, 2008

I'm terrified by some of the choices my friends make, but I don't know how to help them. Maybe I try to control everything too much.

I'm afraid I'm becoming that DUMB SLUT everyone thinks I am.

i spit in your drink went you weren't looking you dumb, controlling bitch.

i wish my life had less drama, but i'm afraid it'd be boring with out it.

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I feel trapped inside my own mind, an old soul stuck in a young body. People think they understand me, but there are so many things that I think and feel that no one knows. I feel much more mature mentally than my friends and classmates, but I really wish I could slow down and enjoy being young. I wish I could understand why people have random hookups. I don't get how its fun if it's not someone you love. I don't know why it's okay to give your body away to someone who barely knows your name.

Post Secrets for April 28, 2008

i'm afraid every decision i'm making is the wrong one.

with only one chance, i'll never know.

I would give you EVERYTHING...

I think you just want to fuck.

i hide things from you because i love you and i know you would be upset if you found out.

When I told her I didn't care if she went out with him, that we were way over, I lied. I still care. And it still hurts.

Even though my cat died over 3 years ago, I sometimes still cry because I'll randomly begin missing him again.

Post Secrets for April 27, 2008