I despise myself for being overweight... In a way I hate that I can eat so much and I am almost gluttonous when there are children in other places of the world who starve. I have started to feel as if I don't deserve to eat.

I should have gone to you the night that you died. You hung up on me. I'm sorry I didn't come over & save them the sight of seeing you like that.

Since I'm not as well-known at state as I was at my high-school...I feel so inadequate here...I hate that I'm considered fat and ugly at state--so for the first time in my life I wore makeup everyday and now I'm trying to lose weight.

Post Secrets of May 8, 2008

I always try to live with no regrets, but it takes a lot out of me. I don't know if I can do it this time.

I hate when people jokingly call me fat. Even though I know it's not true, it still hurts a little.

Post Secrets for May 7, 2008

I wish people would stand up for me and not always take your side because you're a man.

Sometimes i wish you would stop lying, even though it benefits me, so i can regain some faith in you and in people...

I can't figure out if you're worth it. Prove to me without a doubt you are, or make it easy for me to walk away.

Post Secrets for May 6, 2008

I was really sad to say good bye to you and I don't know why

I am so sad to leave this place for the summer. This was a good year and I don't want to leave it behind. I just wish everyone would stay here forever.

Strangely enough, I am really going to miss the dorms. But not Fountain.

Post Secrets for May 5, 2008

Everything is so overwhelming, I have no idea how to fix any of it, and where my life is going...

He still lies to you...all the time...part of me wishes he didn't and i don't know why.

I am sad I will never live on campus again, it's very unexpected.

I love my suite with all of my heart and it makes me sad that we probably won't be as close next year.

Post Secrets for May 4, 2008

i don't want to do anything with my life, i wish i could just sit around and be lazy.

i think my expectations for people may be too high, but i'm afraid to let go of them, in case they aren't...

i spit in your food when you aren't there, i'm so glad we never have to live together again.

Post Secrets May 3, 2008

I miss the way things were, I just wish life wasn't so difficult and that every decision i made didn't hurt someone. now, instead of thinking of myself, I have to think of everyone else too. I just want to be in control again.

I want to fuck.