I slept with your mom. I'm so sorry. But at least now I know why you were so good.

Hey everybody! I haven't been checking very often because people haven't been posting much. Feel free to continue posting but once the school year starts I will check daily. Thank you.

my biggest fear is being forgotten. that is why i force myself to socialize. i need to be remembered.

Post Secrets for May 21, 2008

I hate summer and all the people who are so excited about it.

I'm glad you fought for me...

Post Secrets for May 20, 2008

When you get mad over something stupid, it just makes me want to keep doing it. Stop.

Post Secrets for May 19, 2008

I cannot believe how ridiculous and immature you are.

I secretly steal office supplies from work. I don't know why, but I can't stop.

Post Secrets for May 18, 2008

I hate the person I've become...

Post Secrets for May 17, 2008

I hate that you've trapped me in this relationship. I feel betrayed and tricked but also like I can't leave. You're completely selfish.

I know I CAN live without you...I just don't know if I WANT to.

Post Secrets for May 16, 2008

I slept with your gf. I can never tell you because you have been such a great friend, but it will NEVER happen again.

I'm starting to trust you again, but I'm still guarded and not naive like before. Don't let me down.

Post Secrets for May 15, 2008

I wish it was possible for a single guy and girl to meet, with only friendly intentions. It's weird how the friendship phase is passed over, especially in college. I feel like everyone is looking for a relationship out of everyone they meet. I guess it's natural to want that, but I still wish there was some middle ground.

Post Secrets for May 14, 2008

Even thought you tell me you love me, and that you will be in my life forever, a small part of me is still scared i will lose you like i lost her.

I hate all the men in my life who have made it that much harder for me to let the next one in...

Post Secrets for May 13, 2008

to the tan guy with facial hair who is always riding his bike around campus: even though you look like you haven't showered in days, i still find you EXTREMELY attractive in a really earthy kind of way...

Post Secrets for May 12, 2008

i go to a dumb fucking school full of ass-backwards rednecks and engineers

no matter how hard i try, whenever my phone goes off, my heart jumps hoping it's you...

i have a crush on the green bandana boy who used to live in bragaw

Post Secrets for May 11, 2008

I ate your leftovers.

I'm so glad your out of my life, but it still hurts that you talk about me and don't even care that I'm not in yours...

Post Secrets for May 10, 2008

I think I'm finally ready to let go and move on.

I'm pretty sure I watch porn just as much as my guy friends....but I'm a girl.

Post Secrets for May 9, 2008

I despise myself for being overweight... In a way I hate that I can eat so much and I am almost gluttonous when there are children in other places of the world who starve. I have started to feel as if I don't deserve to eat.

I should have gone to you the night that you died. You hung up on me. I'm sorry I didn't come over & save them the sight of seeing you like that.

Since I'm not as well-known at state as I was at my high-school...I feel so inadequate here...I hate that I'm considered fat and ugly at state--so for the first time in my life I wore makeup everyday and now I'm trying to lose weight.

Post Secrets of May 8, 2008

I always try to live with no regrets, but it takes a lot out of me. I don't know if I can do it this time.

I hate when people jokingly call me fat. Even though I know it's not true, it still hurts a little.

Post Secrets for May 7, 2008

I wish people would stand up for me and not always take your side because you're a man.

Sometimes i wish you would stop lying, even though it benefits me, so i can regain some faith in you and in people...

I can't figure out if you're worth it. Prove to me without a doubt you are, or make it easy for me to walk away.

Post Secrets for May 6, 2008

I was really sad to say good bye to you and I don't know why

I am so sad to leave this place for the summer. This was a good year and I don't want to leave it behind. I just wish everyone would stay here forever.

Strangely enough, I am really going to miss the dorms. But not Fountain.

Post Secrets for May 5, 2008

Everything is so overwhelming, I have no idea how to fix any of it, and where my life is going...

He still lies to you...all the time...part of me wishes he didn't and i don't know why.

I am sad I will never live on campus again, it's very unexpected.

I love my suite with all of my heart and it makes me sad that we probably won't be as close next year.

Post Secrets for May 4, 2008

i don't want to do anything with my life, i wish i could just sit around and be lazy.

i think my expectations for people may be too high, but i'm afraid to let go of them, in case they aren't...

i spit in your food when you aren't there, i'm so glad we never have to live together again.

Post Secrets May 3, 2008

I miss the way things were, I just wish life wasn't so difficult and that every decision i made didn't hurt someone. now, instead of thinking of myself, I have to think of everyone else too. I just want to be in control again.

I want to fuck.

Post Secrets for May 2, 2008

I give you my best, but I never get your best. I feel so used, why am I not good enough?

I think it may be too hard seeing him again, and I just need to stop, but I don't think I can...

i know that you're lying to me, you think you are so great at it, but i can tell. i just don't know why you're lying yet.

I can't stop thinking about your dick.

Post Secrets for May 1, 2008

You're the only thing that keeps me going...and i think i may have to stop talking to you.

I'm afraid you're like a drug to me and I am to you and we'll never be able to stop...

I can't wait to move off campus so I don't have to listen to people's bed squeaking while they're having sex.

i enjoy using up the last of the toilet paper because i know that the next person will be left without ANY.

Post Secrets for April 30, 2008

I wish I could talk to my family about what is going on in my life, but I'm afraid if I do, they will judge me.

I think I'm going to fail out of college, I don't know how to fix it, and its the last thing I want. I'm so embarrassed.

i'm starting to think i create drama in my life, because deep down i enjoy it.

i'm terrified i will let my family down and never live up to their expectations, even though they tell me they are proud.

I cut myself, and then make up excuses before my friends get a chance to ask about.

i cry every time i think about my relationship with my parents. i miss them so much and i hate how things are, but i have no idea how to fix them. i know they care and would do anything for me, but i feel like i can't go them about things. i wish there was something i could do.

Post Secrets for April 29, 2008

I'm terrified by some of the choices my friends make, but I don't know how to help them. Maybe I try to control everything too much.

I'm afraid I'm becoming that DUMB SLUT everyone thinks I am.

i spit in your drink went you weren't looking you dumb, controlling bitch.

i wish my life had less drama, but i'm afraid it'd be boring with out it.

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I feel trapped inside my own mind, an old soul stuck in a young body. People think they understand me, but there are so many things that I think and feel that no one knows. I feel much more mature mentally than my friends and classmates, but I really wish I could slow down and enjoy being young. I wish I could understand why people have random hookups. I don't get how its fun if it's not someone you love. I don't know why it's okay to give your body away to someone who barely knows your name.

Post Secrets for April 28, 2008

i'm afraid every decision i'm making is the wrong one.

with only one chance, i'll never know.

I would give you EVERYTHING...

I think you just want to fuck.

i hide things from you because i love you and i know you would be upset if you found out.

When I told her I didn't care if she went out with him, that we were way over, I lied. I still care. And it still hurts.

Even though my cat died over 3 years ago, I sometimes still cry because I'll randomly begin missing him again.

Post Secrets for April 27, 2008

After a few years in college, I have realized that it's not for me. I'm thinking of leaving. Everything they teach us here is meaningless in the grand scheme of things. No real lessons about life are taught in school, just pointless facts and equations that we as humans made up to quantify the natural forces that surround us. What are we really doing??

I still have feelings for you, and I think you do for me. It's too late because now you're with her. But is it ever too late?

I am terrified because I have no idea where my life is going. I want to pause and figure it out, but that's not an option.

I found out you slept with my best friend.

Guess what?

I've been sleeping with your brother.

Post Secrets for April 26, 2008

i am secretly still dating my boyfriend though im telling everyone that im not.i figure that way people wont get mad at me and maybe i wont miss out on the one guy that may be my soulmate.

I'm stronger that I ever thought I could be. I'm so proud.

I only apologized because you made me....I'm not really sorry.

I've never been happier than when I was with you.

I'm afraid I will never be that happy again.

just because i got through it, doesn't mean i'm ok.

When I tell other people what a jerk you are, it's not because I like talking crap about you. It's cause I'm trying to make myself believe it so I can move on.

i am secretly in love with one of my best guy friends. and he will never know the truth...

Post Secrets for April 25, 2008

I don't put up walls to keep people out, I do to see who cares enough to break them down.

I just realized that I'm exactly where I was a year ago, where I worked so hard not to go back to, and that terrifies me. Especially that I just figured it out...

My secret? I wish that deep down someone really wanted to date me. No one has any idea how lonely it is after 2 years of not being wanted by anyone.

Post Secrets for April 24, 2008

Don't be afraid to be who you truly are? If only I had the courage to stand up to my parents and everyone and tell them my true plans for my life, who I really am, everything would fit together for me.

I am 20 years old, halfway done with college, and I don't even think college is where I need to be at this point in my life.

i save voicemails from you so when i miss you, i can still hear your voice.

I wish I could live my life the way I do when I'm drunk because then I would be honest, free, and not afraid for once.

every time i'm horny, i'm hungry.

does that make me fat?

i put meat in my vegetarian friend's food when she wasn't looking.

My car and the one next to it got a ticket. I switched the tickets, mine got paid, and I threw theirs away.

I know what you really whispered that time I asked you what you said, and you pretended it was something else.

I hope it's true, and that you have the courage to really say it to me one day.

I always hated the cherry chapstick you wore. At least now I never have to taste it again.

Post Secrets for April 23, 2008

Don't be afraid to be who you truly are...

i am 20 years old and still watch the disney channel

i slept with my professor..and i only made a B+

i wish my life was a musical

I cannot even concentrate in class anymore because I keep wondering to myself "Is this it? Is this all life is supposed to be? Facts Figures, Equations, more and more money?" What happened to people actually being truly happy in life?

Thank you for proving to me that you aren't the perfect guy i thought you were...

i cheated on my boyfriend with the guy i lost my virginity to, 2 years ago. i want to be with him but he doesnt want a relationship and apparently im not girlfriend material.i love my boyfriend, im just not in love with him anymore.

everything i do is for you
on second thought, it's all for me!

sometimes i wonder if my existence even matters

i thought moving away was the hardest thing i'd have to do...now it's moving back

People think I've stopped lying........I'm just better at it now.

When I meet people for the first time, I think about what it would be like to have sex with them.

I'm afraid of time passing too quickly, because I have no idea what I want to do with my life, or where it's going.

All my excuses for being late are lies.

I wish I could go back to when I was five years old, when everything was so much easier.

I'm afraid of getting caught in a revolving door.

I still haven't learn not to trust people.

Hey, this is a test secret from UNC-CH Secrets, just to get the ball rolling. Best of luck!

The NCSU post secrets project

This is my first blog so please be patient as I work out the details. Thank you for participating in my site, and thank you to Post Secret for the information, and The UNC-CH Secrets Project for helping me set this up. Their blog can be viewed at http://uncchsecrets.blogspot.com/. For this site to be successful, the word has to get out to as many people as possible, so please tell all your friends. Each day I will post a picture or words of inspiration to get you started, but feel free to write what you feel.