Thursday, May 8, 2008

I despise myself for being overweight... In a way I hate that I can eat so much and I am almost gluttonous when there are children in other places of the world who starve. I have started to feel as if I don't deserve to eat.
I should have gone to you the night that you died. You hung up on me. I'm sorry I didn't come over & save them the sight of seeing you like that.
Since I'm not as well-known at state as I was at my high-school...I feel so inadequate here...I hate that I'm considered fat and ugly at state--so for the first time in my life I wore makeup everyday and now I'm trying to lose weight.
Post Secrets of May 8, 2008