I feel trapped inside my own mind, an old soul stuck in a young body. People think they understand me, but there are so many things that I think and feel that no one knows. I feel much more mature mentally than my friends and classmates, but I really wish I could slow down and enjoy being young. I wish I could understand why people have random hookups. I don't get how its fun if it's not someone you love. I don't know why it's okay to give your body away to someone who barely knows your name.

Post Secrets for April 28, 2008

i'm afraid every decision i'm making is the wrong one.

with only one chance, i'll never know.

I would give you EVERYTHING...

I think you just want to fuck.

i hide things from you because i love you and i know you would be upset if you found out.

When I told her I didn't care if she went out with him, that we were way over, I lied. I still care. And it still hurts.

Even though my cat died over 3 years ago, I sometimes still cry because I'll randomly begin missing him again.

Post Secrets for April 27, 2008

After a few years in college, I have realized that it's not for me. I'm thinking of leaving. Everything they teach us here is meaningless in the grand scheme of things. No real lessons about life are taught in school, just pointless facts and equations that we as humans made up to quantify the natural forces that surround us. What are we really doing??

I still have feelings for you, and I think you do for me. It's too late because now you're with her. But is it ever too late?

I am terrified because I have no idea where my life is going. I want to pause and figure it out, but that's not an option.

I found out you slept with my best friend.

Guess what?

I've been sleeping with your brother.

Post Secrets for April 26, 2008

i am secretly still dating my boyfriend though im telling everyone that im not.i figure that way people wont get mad at me and maybe i wont miss out on the one guy that may be my soulmate.

I'm stronger that I ever thought I could be. I'm so proud.

I only apologized because you made me....I'm not really sorry.

I've never been happier than when I was with you.

I'm afraid I will never be that happy again.

just because i got through it, doesn't mean i'm ok.

When I tell other people what a jerk you are, it's not because I like talking crap about you. It's cause I'm trying to make myself believe it so I can move on.

i am secretly in love with one of my best guy friends. and he will never know the truth...

Post Secrets for April 25, 2008

I don't put up walls to keep people out, I do to see who cares enough to break them down.

I just realized that I'm exactly where I was a year ago, where I worked so hard not to go back to, and that terrifies me. Especially that I just figured it out...

My secret? I wish that deep down someone really wanted to date me. No one has any idea how lonely it is after 2 years of not being wanted by anyone.

Post Secrets for April 24, 2008